It all started with a 100 Day blog.

 Welcome to not so secret online journal. Welcome. Thanks for stopping by. In 2010, I made myself a promise to create something every day for 100 days and post it online.  It was a way to connect with the world after long bouts of debilitating depression. I posted art, poetry, stories, thoughts, and dreams.  It […]

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What’s the title of this painting?

What is the title of his painting I ask myself. I am so inspired- is that the feeling–so awed maybe– By the complexities of the universe, And the way that so much is going on invisible and unknown. The very fact that there is a tangible real existence that we all believe in–so even colour for […]

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Inspiration and Cognitive Fires.

I am inspired by trying to understand things that I don’t understand. The unknown inspires me. Confusion and displacement and new perspectives– new ways of thinking inspire me.   I am inspired by everything  that demands that I slow down and face all that I don’t know. Nothing is more intriguing to me than trying to figure […]

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Painting and Writing and dreaming and stargazing

Even if we have a reliable method and a process that seems to work  there is still a lot of mystery in making art. It’s a act of faith sometimes. Somehow magic is involved and patience. Sometimes a  story calls you to come and find it, but you can’t quite locate where it’s hiding. I […]

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A New Year Wish for anyone struggling and not able to celebrate

“Face your life, its pain, its pleasure, leave no path untaken.” ― Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book  It’s December 31st 2017.  I am re-blogging this post from 2013, a very difficult year in my life and I’m sending it out to anyone who has struggled this year. Life this year has been stamping it’s foot, screaming at […]

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Remembering December 6.

Every year I make this post to remember this sad day. On December 6 in Canada many of us commemorate the anniversary of the Montreal Massacre,at L’École Polytechnique de Montréal. On that terrible day December 6 1989 14 innocent young women were gunned down-in a senseless and horrific act of violence against women. They were young engineering students-most of […]

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Trying to write a poem

0n the death of Seamus Heaney I am trying to write a poem because I am sad– and because summer is ending- and because a poet I love has died. I am trying to write a poem because– as the days grow short and the nights fall so suddenly- all my summers- of innocence and […]

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Insider Secrets

When I was a kid- my grade eight math teacher told our class about a mail-order scam where someone would put an ad in the classifieds–offering an ancient secret to becoming rich and famous. All you had to do was send nine dollars to a box number and the secret of unlimited wealth would be yours. A few weeks later, a booklet in a plain brown package would […]

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Mind your own business

“There are only three kinds of business in the universe: mine, yours, and God’s.” ~ Byron Katie Today, I had the urge to write about something that I was outraged about. I was annoyed  about a particular internet  art star. I wanted to be the kid in the crowd who cries out that the emperor has no clothes. But […]

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Phew!

I am working on my play again after a couple of months of avoiding it. I feel like I am standing in front of a house with no door– and I am trying to figure out how to get back in. Today I am going for a long walk around Trout Lake with my characters. […]

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